"If it were easy, everyone would do it.."

A couple of other yogis have emailed me in response to the email the Shala sent out on my behalf. Some people are staying in accommodation up to 10 minutes walk away! Here I am worrying about a 5 minute walk. lol.

My practice has been a little on and off over the past couple of days. I have been feeling a little unmotivated - I think in part due to my work situation, worries about leaving Owen and my pooch. It’s really taking a toll.

I have no issue leaving for 3 months - it only gets hard when you are leaving behind loved ones. Of course this is all for the better and our lives will be vastly different, and improved, when i return - but it doesn’t make the journey of going ‘through’ this process any easier. But of course, as with the old saying - “if it were easy, everyone would do it!”. I guess this is what will set me out from the rest. It’s the challenges I face which make the experience, and the outcome, all the more meaningful.

Of course I can do it - of course we can get through this - it’s just going to be tough. Talk about a life lesson!

A little day of calm

After a very hectic Christmas, Owen and i have spent today sleeping in, reading and watching movies. For me - this is odd. I tend to find it quite difficult to just stop. To just be. I think this is, in part, why I love yoga so much. In my hectic life, its the one time I can just stop. Well - it seems I am beginning to bring this practice into my daily life. When I stop and think about why it may be that I am finally beginning to feel ‘calm’ in my usual day to day life - I think it very much has something to do with the knowledge that I will no longer be a cog in the corporate machine. I have never felt so free and in feeling this way, I just feel… “lighter”.

Of course it’s going to be a little scary being unemployed and still with responsibilities, i.e. my properties, but I know everything will work out. I will find a way to make it so. As a true believer that we can have anything we desire if we want it enough, I know anything I need will be made available to me when I need it. That everything will fall into place - because I will make it so. And with this knowledge, I find a feeling of calm - one I have not known before, and a feeling I am truly grateful for.

Surya Namaskara

I’m getting quite proud of myself. I’m beginning to successfully recall the postures in Sanskrit. I still have a long way to go but at least Im headed in the right direction. I also chanted to the Yoga Sutras. Wow - is that difficult! The words make no sense at all to me, and quite possibly most people in the world, and even trying to hear the pronunciation is difficult.  It makes sense why we have been told to commit to daily practice now.

I’m struggling to get up in the mornings at the moment, which is odd for me. Owen’s thinks I may have a virus.  Or it may be that I’m terribly bored and depressed at work. In fact the latter is the more likely reason.

I didn’t resign today. I’ve decided to hold off until next Monday when I have more chance of being granted my final day being the 27th of Jan.

Well - off to bed. Tomorrow is my final day at work, Christmas Eve, which is exciting. Then 4 days off! Woot!

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Just keep training

I love Christmas. It’s such a wonderful time of year. There is a fabulous energy about the world at this time.

Today I spent lunch trying to collect last minute Christmas gifts. It;s suddenly happening too soon.

I haven’t done alot today in the world of yoga. This morning I went through the asanas I have learnt thus far, but I’m not doing very well. There are so many names for postures which all look very similar. I know I can learn them over time - but in 6 weeks? Well - anything is possible right!