Since returning to Australia I’ve worked really hard to return to ‘normal’ life. Granted I’m living in a new city and have no family here (other than my Owen and pooch), but you get what I mean. For those who have been to India, especially some of the poorest parts of India (like where I ventured to on the final leg of my trip), you will know how vastly different our countries are. There really is no comparison at all. But regardless of how different and uncomfortable India was at times (often), India became my new home. This wasn’t only due to the amount of time I spent there, but the lessons I learned there. Lessons about how to be more present in the world, in myself. How to smile when most would run for the hills screaming, how to notice life. Learning how to ‘be’ in the world is not an easy task, and for those who have been following my blog, you will know the trials and tribulations I’ve been through which helped me to see the world with this new pair of lenses. The challenge is to now apply these lessons back here.
Stronger and more confident in myself, I certainly feel like I’ve been managing ok. I make a point of looking up rather than down, stopping to smell the jonquils as I walk past (my favourite flower), walking my pooch whenever i can and being grateful for the opportunity to do so, recalling how much I missed him while I was away. What I didn’t realise (or have tried not to focus on), until just last night, is how misunderstood I feel back here. I didn’t realise this until a friend who I trained with in India emailed me to catch up (we both live in Melbourne). And because i feel misunderstood, as not many can relate or even fathom what we went through, I feel somewhat alone. It’s an odd realisation as I essentially went from feeling completely out of place in India to now feeling the same way here in Australia. Unpacking this now makes me realise why I’ve become so passionate about sharing this practice with others. Not to make people feel misunderstood - that’s not ideal - but to offer practitioners an opportunity to be a part of this wonderful, life changing space yoga naturally creates - within a group and more importantly, within ourselves.
Hosting community classes here in Melbourne has been truly wonderful. It’s so much fun to get out there and share this practice with like minded people; people who really want to learn. As a teacher I couldn’t ask for anything more and this really connects me with what I feel is my true self. I feel complete when I’m teaching. There is suddenly no feeling of being misunderstood or out of place. I also know the more classes i hold, the easier the transition back to Australia will become. Surrounding myself with yoga is really important, especially now. Unfortunately there are no sleeping cows in the middle of highways here, but I can live with that.
With that, I want to thank the beautiful yogis who are coming out to practice with me every Saturday morning. You make the training I’ve completed, included every up and down moment, worth it and I’m excited to grow this community with your support.